Auteur: Leon Fassbender

  • The destruction of the internet as we know it

    The first time I ever used the internet was in 1996. The year before my dad had bought us a shiny new, black desktop PC from Compaq, which ran Windows 95 and included the ‘Weezer’ video, which was probably the first video I ever saw on a computer screen!

    In those days I had no real clue what the internet actually was, except that it seemed like a huge encyclopedia, stored somewhere on a telephone line, where you could find information on almost anything you wanted.

    Back then 16‑year‑old me was totally into Formula 1 and my idol was Michael Schumacher, so the first thing I did when the modem finally dialed in and Netscape Navigator popped up was look up pictures of the Ferrari F1 car he was driving that year.

    I remember that dial‑up was terribly slow: the screeching noise of the modem, sometimes needing more than one try to actually connect, and it could take two or three minutes before a link was finally established. During your time online nobody in the house could make a phone call because you literally had to plug the phone line into the Compaq to ‘surf’ online.

    The Ferrari images I managed to download took forever to render, and therefore I ended up with only two or three pictures. Apart from pictures and text there wasn’t much you could do online anyway, so I wasn’t really interested in it.

    Fast‑forward to 1997 in high school and then 1998 at university. The internet was becoming more and more of a “household” thing now, and we sometimes used it to look up study material (saved on a 1.44 Mbs floppy disk!) or to test the websites we’d built in Macromedia Dreamweaver, full of tables and loads of Flash (CSS was still in its infancy back then).

    I think the first time I really started to use the internet was around 1999‑2000, when I finally figured out what that weird ‘@’ symbol thingy was, that people used to send each other messages. I quickly opened a Hotmail account and used it for many years to send and receive emails between friends, family and fellow students.

    The late 90’s and early 2000’s was the era of AltaVista, GeoCities, Yahoo, Hotmail, online forums and ‘weblogs’, which later became ‘blogs’. It all felt very liberating to me. I had this illusion that the internet would keep growing into an open, free space where people could discuss stuff openly, share ideas and exchange information for the benefit of everyone, all done in a polite and respectful way.

    Of course, in hindsight that was a big dose of naïve idealism on my part.

    Around 2005—and increasingly throughout the 2010s—social media networks began to dominate the internet. The once‑perceived “free, unregulated web” quickly faded. As Marc Zuckerberg, Larry Page, and their peers built ever‑larger empires, they were soon joined by YouTube, Twitter, and Instagram. What had started as a relatively open network with no gatekeepers morphed into a massive, omnipresent, and largely monopolistic operation.

    Social platforms became the de facto rulers of the internet: algorithms steered public discourse, and these new social media sites wielded enough influence to even affect the rise and fall of governments—all while prioritizing profit and their own interests above anything else.

    Because of those algorithms, freedom of speech—as we once understood it—has now been reduced to “the freedom to be potentially heard under the condition that you toe the approved narrative, and the algorithm likes you.”

    When opinions are filtered, ranked, or amplified by opaque recommendation engines, true free expression disappears. When only pre‑selected, pre‑ranked voices receive the spotlight, social media ceases to be “social” at all.

    This method of filtering and steering public discourse mirrors the old communist regimes of Eastern Europe, except the “Politburo” has been swapped out for an algorithm.

    Social media doesn’t point a gun at you; it lulls you into compliance through the algorithm acting as the catalyst—“Hey, we know what we like and we think you should like it too!”

    In earlier eras, oppressed peoples rose up against their oppressors, sparking revolutions in the name of free speech.

    Today, it seems to me that far too many people have lost the habit of questioning “accepted” narratives and of thinking—or speaking—critically about them.

    Often, there is no discourse at all, just blind acceptance, as if we’ve all become a horde of numb‑headed zombies. Either we surrender to passive conformity, or we plunge into a level of polarization that the world has never seen before!

    It’s weird.

    And if algorithm driven social media hadn’t already crushed my hopes for an honest and open internet, the next monster showed up in 2021‑2022: AI.

    Don’t get me wrong—I’m not anti‑AI. It can be genuinely useful in many contexts. What worries me is that big‑tech now controls it, intent on powering the entire internet with AI—a development unfolding before our eyes. Look at any modern search engine or app; they all have AI baked in. Even when there’s no clear added value, AI is everywhere because it’s the hot trend and everyone and their mother feels compelled to include it.

    And yes, when it comes to the internet I see that AI can sift through and organize information far faster than any human—perfect for the impatient society we’ve become. No more endless scrolling through irrelevant search results, no more wasting time on misleading content; the right answers arrive instantly. I get all that.

    In my view, AI is draining the soul from the “inter‑connected” network that was originally built by and for humans. Back then, people operated the machines that ran the internet. Now we’ve flipped the script: the machines are beginning to run us, and I’m not sure I like that.

    I believe AI is rapidly de‑humanizing the internet. Sooner or later it will turn into nothing more than an ultimate, machine‑controlled answering‑machine—appearing to know everything while merely regurgitating data fed to it by other algorithms.

    Humans, meanwhile, are losing both the interest and the brain capacity to generate original ideas and share them.This is similar to the thesis that smartphones have made us more stupid ever since they hit the market in 2007, which I tend to agree with.

    To me, the marriage of big tech and AI—purportedly to make the internet a better place —leaves a pretty, pretty sour aftertaste.

    Frankly, it makes me laugh.

    How about I just call it hypocrisy?

    How about I wish I was back in 1996 behind my Compaq, watching the Weezer video or the Ferrari of Michael Schumacher?

  • Live like you’re a dog

    Live like you’re a dog

    The other day I was assisting a conversation between two people. One of them was complaining about how difficult her life was right now—how many things she had to do, the responsibilities she carried, and how each day had become like a survival to endure with no immediate end in sight.

    While listening to all of this, I couldn’t stop thinking about what Buddhism and Shaolin teachings—on which I’ve read a couple of books—have to say about dealing with problems.

    By the way, these teachings are not new to me; for some reason I have unconsciously always “known” these truths, which has given me the ability to never worry too much about anything in life.

    In today’s world that light‑hearted attitude isn’t always appreciated—there can be jealousy, envy, or even anger toward people like me who seem to take something as complicated as life so lightly. At least, that’s the reaction I sometimes encounter in the conversations I have. 

    I’m not downplaying or ignoring anyone’s difficulties; this is simply the way I choose to deal with ‘problems’. And it happens to be mostly in line with what the Buddhist and Shaolin teachings say about dealing with them.

    Most of the difficulties we face day‑to‑day arise from our own perception, not from anything intrinsic in the world around us. In their raw form, events are neutral—they simply happen.

    Labeling them “bad” or “negative” is a judgment we impose, a linguistic shortcut born of a mental construct that transforms a plain occurrence into a so‑called “problem.”

    In reality, nothing external can cause a problem for you, me or anyone, unless we attach a value or judgment to the event we experience.

    It isn’t the event itself that creates trouble; it is our reaction to—or valuation of—that event that becomes what we call a “problem.”

    Consequently, we fail to see things as they really are, much like the prisoners in Plato’s allegory of the cave who mistake shadows on the wall for reality.

    All of this then begs the question how we can start seeing things for what they really are, so as to make our problems go away or at least diminish their impact?

    Buddhist teachings answer this by urging us to place our energy in the present moment—often through practices such as meditation.

    Why? Because the present is the only reality we truly possess. In the lived experience that we call life, there is no tangible past or future; those are merely mental projections.

    The past is a story we replay in our minds, and the future is an imagined scenario we anticipate. Therefore, If we focus on the present moment exclusively, problems literally cannot exist.

    I found inspiration the other day while observing our dog Naksu—a beautiful Weimaraner. It struck me that dogs may actually be the best living illustration of how to deal with challenges!

    Funny enough I think their behavior also mirrors many of the virtues celebrated in Buddhism. Here’s how:

    1. Dogs live in the present moment. They don’t hold grudges; they’re genuinely happy when you’re happy. They carry no lingering worries about past events or anxieties about what lies ahead. In essence, dogs live entirely in the present moment. Lesson: forget about what was or what is to come. Focus on what’s in front of you right now. It’s all you really have anyway.
    2. Dogs appreciate small things. You can brighten a dog’s day with the smallest treat—a crumb of cheese, even—and it will instantly wag its tail in gratitude. That’s what genuine appreciation looks like. Lesson: Instead of inventing problems in your mind, redirect that energy toward appreciating whatever appears on your path—even the smallest thing. The key is simply to shift your mindset.
    3. Dogs show great fidelty. A dog never abandons its pack, nor does it betray the one it trusts as its leader. Lesson: Say what you intend and follow through on it. Stay true to yourself and to others.
    4. Dogs are courageous. Dogs instinctively guard their territory, even when the challenger appears stronger. The Lesson: Stay resolute and courageous, no matter the odds.
    5. Dogs are noble. Dogs often put the well‑being of their humans ahead of their own comfort—whether it’s staying by a sick owner’s side, alerting you to danger, or rescuing someone in distress. Lesson: Life is not about you, it’s about the other person.

    I could mention even more ways in which dogs serve as models for us humans, but I think you get the point: if you want a happier, less problem‑prone life, don’t over complicate it. And live like you’re a dog.

  • A man of mediocrity

    I never wanted to be a man of mediocrity: the kind who lives on a couch, consuming a diet of streaming services, social media, or online gambling.

    His world is small, his interests confined to work, money, base humor, and getting drunk on the weekend. He masks a lack of depth with cynicism and gossip, mistaking his limited view for a clear-eyed one.

    I’ve met my share of these people, and I feel no superiority. Only a firm conviction that this is not who I want to be.

    What I have always loved is finding depth in my pursuits and in my connections. I find it in reading, writing, drawing, photography, and music, and in conversations with curious minds.

    Yet, I feel our society has less and less room for such meaningful pursuits. Online and off, you garner more attention for a career milestone on LinkedIn than for a piece on the beauty of Impressionism.

    We are flattening into a culture of emotionless rationality, one that prizes performance above all else.

    This worldview is driven by competition, polarization, and a relentless push for efficiency: an ethos evident in our obsession with AI and our celebration of figures like Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos as ultimate role models.

    I believe we must move in the opposite direction.

    Our world would be profoundly better if more people looked inward instead of outward. Real beauty emerges from soul-searching, from discovering what you, from your own creative core, can offer the world.

    This is how societies truly grow: through the dedicated efforts of individuals creating and sharing value.

    These creations are the antithesis of the mental junk food that clogs our feeds and that cynical resignation of your colleague at work that life is merely something to be endured.

    To create something of authentic value and share it is to actively build a better society.

    My mission is simple: to practice and share meaningful pursuits like drawing, painting, and writing. Follow me and join me on my journey to become a better Renaissance man and help make the world a little bit better, one creation at a time.

  • I’m a Swiftie now!

    I’m a Swiftie now!

    Never thought I’d say this at 46, but I’m officially a Swiftie. Sort of.

    According to Google AI, a Swiftie is a self-identified, enthusiastic, and loyal fan of the singer Taylor Swift. The term, a portmanteau of Taylor Swift’s last name, implies a deeper level of fandom beyond casual listening.

    While the “deeper level of fandom beyond casual listening” does not apply to me yet, I must say I have really come to appreciate the artist and creator that Swift is, after having seen The Official Release Party of a Showgirl yesterday evening. This is not a documentary I would have chosen on my own initiative, simply because I never really followed her, and I’m definitely not part of the Millennial demographic that makes up a large part of Swift’s fanbase (though of course, it’s not only millennials who like Taylor Swift!). It was actually my 13-year-old daughter who asked me to join her, and like any good father, I had to comply!

    Having said that, I do appreciate watching the behind-the-scenes and creative process involved in making a new music album and video. That’s exactly what The Official Release Party of a Showgirl offers. It’s a, YouTube/vlog-style documentary, narrated and produced by Swift herself, where she takes the viewer onto the recording set of the first single from her new album, “The Fate of Ophelia”. You get a glimpse of the work involved in recording a music video, and in between, Swift talks about how each song on the album came to be and what inspired her to write it. I find this last part especially interesting. More artists should do this!

    As for Taylor Swift as a person, she comes across to me as down-to-earth, dedicated, well-articulated, and with a very strong artistic vision. She appears to know exactly the creative direction she wants to take, and often while watching the documentary, I had the impression that she would have been just as good as an art director, had she not been a famous singer and performer. I think her personal involvement in every step of the process of producing the album and video makes a real difference; It all feels very personal, and I like that.

    Regarding the music, my favorites were quite diverse. I was drawn to the classic upbeat pop of ‘The Fate of Ophelia,’ with its strong bassline, as well as the slower, more intimate, ‘Eldest Daughter.’ For a dose of nostalgic melancholy, I loved ‘Ruin The Friendship,’ whose chorus and 70s-style bassline are really good. Finally, ‘Opalite’ stands out as a potential banger, largely thanks to its chorus.

    In conclusion, I think that Taylor Swift has delivered some very high-quality work with The Life of A Showgirl. It’s an album that is musically strong and cohesive, and lyrically pure. I highly recommend you listen to it and see the documentary for yourself if you get the chance.